When the feeling come again

This feeling have been left a long time a go...but don't know why its coming again...with different person..yes exactly...who is the guy...someone charming and adorable? Yaps...maybe...not with his word but with his act...looks so cool but not...wanna know him more...hem...he went to my dream last night...something silly but interesting hahha...he wrote letter for me...about something he wanna be with me and something he doesn't like of me...I remember he wrotte about my childish...traveling alone...and he wrote if he want convenience me when I get my traveling someday...ow owsome hahhaha....wish that not just a dream...

And I feel it again...the feeling I was buring for a moment...because I had felt a sick....but now its rising again...how could be?... someone who I never realize to like...someone who always I abbonden from my list of like...and now I feel something unknow...

Just pray to Allah..if his the best for me...please make us closer with the best way...but if someone is the best for me just make us meet at the best time...

Remember my grandfather said...."you have to nice to your husband someday and make him always convertable when he beside you..feel save and feel love" and I will be the nice wife..that's my promise...

Blue..will be married next year..yes I have plan about it...

Done every duty and open the new world...

When the blue feeling comes....

Lilbit blue and pink in my mind

Just wanna write...love to meet him...I believe he waiting on me...like I always do...become better and better in every single day...to meet in the right time on the right place...

Just wanna meet him...as soon as possible...but keep in a good way...

I believe I will meet you..soneeerrr....

Have a nice sleep...sleep tight...nice dreams...my convenience friend on my life....a

The liltle adventure

Little winging little star little blue ~{^_^}~

Happy birthday to meeee...happy birthday to meeeee...happy birthday happy birthday happy birthday to meeee....

I was born at 26th februari 27 years ago...and today I got my 27th birthday....how wonderful right....

Thanks Allah for all the time you gives to me...for all wonderful story and colour in my life...

Thanks for every single things I have to learn...thanks for every part of feels I have been felt...thanks for everything...

Thanks to my family...my sisy...my friend...my deares friends...to all pray and wish you all send to me...thanks...wish Allah keep all your pray and wish for tje good time to make it come true...

27th but I just take it like 17 is it alright?... that's my choice...why...becouse I wanna keep my cheering...my dreaming...my anthusiastic....which that age have.... but I have to move to the wise thinking...lot of learning...more listening like person in 27 age...

Have to draw the new book age...draw the best effor of something and reaching every single part of my hope...wish and dream...

Focus...stronger...wise...kind...easy person..
Nice....good atitude...motivator....creative...optimist...and do all with heart and passion like u always due....

Chance in the good way...but keeeping your character to keep you on your own self....

Thanks my self to trought all of the time which Allah gave to you in a good story....love you my self like I always due...

So come on share the love to your soulmate....he still waiting you out there in the right time and the right place ....~{^_^}~

Blue please don't cry...

Allah....help me please...I only holding on You...barelly...I only neef Your help...

Nothing I can't do...not also think....
Allah...I don't know what I was feeling and also thinking....

Iam not afraid so what happen...I don't know...

I'm worry maybe yes...but why...I don't know...

When its all happen in my life I always realize if its the best for us...no matter what...

I'm realistic...even I have a dreams...I'm become depress yes...but I just holding on to Allah...

Please Allah give me strong...please...no matter what...

Bismillah Allah know the best and I will do the best...

I have to spirit no mater how.....

And thanks Allah when I feel no friend...indeed I always have amazing friend and I have to be more amazing frend...

Allah always with me....always

Always about life

After write down all I have to the write and its gone...but thanks to make it dissapear...

Life is quite hard but I never stop to try....life is crule enough but I never to hate just to smile...coz I believe...I'm here couse one reason and to know that I have to finish my journey...`~[^_^]~•

my own way

this my big problem of my self...sometime i feel lost...no idea how to plan my life...when its coming i have to encourage my power and also my positive energy to get out and up again....not easy but its make me realize a lot of things...

that's life and its all my life...
i have to arrange my schedule and target of life....when i looked my note.all the things in the list is have been done..just several target which i have to take a look again cos its need different effort hahha.... like married...

really pleasure have my blog..all the important things of my life have been written here...and i could learn from all of it...

this years i have to be done with
1. my thesis
2. manage my self, control my emotion
3. be a good with my friend, my family and dont rude
4. make something different from other but keep humble
5. planing to go abroad..yes i have to go abroad at 2014 to continue my study or doing my research
6. write other book...midwifery or fiction...(cos i love both)
7. i have to get scholarship to go to Canada..i want school at Ontario University...
8. be a good speaker...
9. be a necessary person
10. be an inspiration...
11. always focus to get Allah permission never to leave Allah..cos you only navigator who could lost the way when the weather on the sea is going worst but Allah who always guide you and make all your dream come true..with good way which u never thinking before...cos of that I love Allah...
12. always pleasure to all have been happening in the life...

thanks Allah to make me down several time ago.. cos of that i can stand up again and help me to stand still in time which you give to me...always remembering me, if my destination is YOU...all i have been doing in my live the reason is YOUR ridho...always remembering me that things...

Bismillahirrohmanirohim....

i m the navigator of the sea but Allah is the one who has the way so just doing the best to get the right direction but lets Allah give the way you have to across...

when my hearth, my mind and my body feel down i will never give in and i will try to up again :) cos i will down when i die...q(^_^)p