Blue please don't cry...

Allah....help me please...I only holding on You...barelly...I only neef Your help...

Nothing I can't do...not also think....
Allah...I don't know what I was feeling and also thinking....

Iam not afraid so what happen...I don't know...

I'm worry maybe yes...but why...I don't know...

When its all happen in my life I always realize if its the best for us...no matter what...

I'm realistic...even I have a dreams...I'm become depress yes...but I just holding on to Allah...

Please Allah give me strong...please...no matter what...

Bismillah Allah know the best and I will do the best...

I have to spirit no mater how.....

And thanks Allah when I feel no friend...indeed I always have amazing friend and I have to be more amazing frend...

Allah always with me....always

Always about life

After write down all I have to the write and its gone...but thanks to make it dissapear...

Life is quite hard but I never stop to try....life is crule enough but I never to hate just to smile...coz I believe...I'm here couse one reason and to know that I have to finish my journey...`~[^_^]~•

my own way

this my big problem of my self...sometime i feel lost...no idea how to plan my life...when its coming i have to encourage my power and also my positive energy to get out and up again....not easy but its make me realize a lot of things...

that's life and its all my life...
i have to arrange my schedule and target of life....when i looked my note.all the things in the list is have been done..just several target which i have to take a look again cos its need different effort hahha.... like married...

really pleasure have my blog..all the important things of my life have been written here...and i could learn from all of it...

this years i have to be done with
1. my thesis
2. manage my self, control my emotion
3. be a good with my friend, my family and dont rude
4. make something different from other but keep humble
5. planing to go abroad..yes i have to go abroad at 2014 to continue my study or doing my research
6. write other book...midwifery or fiction...(cos i love both)
7. i have to get scholarship to go to Canada..i want school at Ontario University...
8. be a good speaker...
9. be a necessary person
10. be an inspiration...
11. always focus to get Allah permission never to leave Allah..cos you only navigator who could lost the way when the weather on the sea is going worst but Allah who always guide you and make all your dream come true..with good way which u never thinking before...cos of that I love Allah...
12. always pleasure to all have been happening in the life...

thanks Allah to make me down several time ago.. cos of that i can stand up again and help me to stand still in time which you give to me...always remembering me, if my destination is YOU...all i have been doing in my live the reason is YOUR ridho...always remembering me that things...

Bismillahirrohmanirohim....

i m the navigator of the sea but Allah is the one who has the way so just doing the best to get the right direction but lets Allah give the way you have to across...

when my hearth, my mind and my body feel down i will never give in and i will try to up again :) cos i will down when i die...q(^_^)p

This really real word

The life is about something I haven't understand it at all...until now life still give mystery in every single story which I have been cross...

I don't know why people always get in the self on other bussiness...
Ya....feel uncomfort but being harm...whiches no helpfull....

When my feeling feel not singcronize...like something was dying or missing....

Maybe I have learn more...yeah I'm quite selfish but I don't care about it...becouse I just try to keep it on track...people don't know about that...but u have to stay in track...

This the team no matter how...so just keep it going....you will know what Allah wanna you to understand...to learn more....

Just life in everysingle time with good...

Allah please give me in fully peach...

The DrEAms

when I saw the sky and sea over... my heart trembling... how beautiful is it...
world to large if I just stay in one area...
i have to do my journey...journey to every place in the world...
to improve my knowledge and also to see which i ever seen before...

traveling that my dreams...
But When I'LL doing this....
as soon as possible... cos that the dreams...

first going to every beautiful place in Indonesia..my beautiful country...
second going to neighbor country...
third to Canada
fourth to Euro

and my high dreams going to Holy city "Mekah"

with or without friend who convenience....

cos that the dreams....

The blue think about married

When the blue think about married..that's means she really Realize if her age its become older...

When she didn't think about married...that's means she think her age is still younge and she have some dreams which have to reach...

When she think about married..she really needs someone who will complit her life....

When she think about married its means she need someone who could take her head on his shoulder...share about everything and support every dreams...

When she think about married..she really think who is the man whose convenience her life ever after....

She really think about married and need someone who would reach every dreams together....

She really need someone to share idea...build dreams in reality...share advantages to invironment  ...

That's the situation if she though about married....

become old is the true one but become wise is a choice

when the head cant think clear enough...when the hurt feel burn enough...the world become hatefull..but remember its Allah is joyful...
you feel the earth beneath your feet...so peaceful when you lay down on iy...thats means going humble and down to earth not for made you become sandals but for u understand like sandals understand to protect your foot...

when you feel the wind which bloowing your head and give fresh air when you feel prustated...going like it...which every people love it becouse wind always bloowing without thinking the place or situation...be a share person.

be a ocean which have the flat and wide shape to make people love it and feel confort when it convenience you....

be a sky the blue wide sky who could save a lot of thing and make it beauty to see and also manqge the thing to solve the problem become something necessary...

be a fire...which sometime you have to solve the problem with integrity but keep wisely...

be a moon who always give the light in the dark of night...

be a sun who give other life and always give the light even the night trought the moon...

be a stars which always blink and have the same place to be seen...to make people follow you and alwas guiden other and didnt lost in the world....

Please Allah give me the right way to be the wise gals....

The feeling and passionate is cominge

Hem...27-04-2013
Long time i havent had this feel..feel like athousand star are blinking on my heart...hahha....
At bosscha met someone carming...with black and white hair combaine...didnt think about another thinking...he made his self confort with his slf...my eyes blinked...my heart was trumbling...oh Allah...its another time when i was feeling this time...he is smart person...charming also...full of energy passinated...confident...my self was trumbling when his talked about star...star...star..and star...

The star is have a match....Allah create acouple star...even sun live by its self but he believe if sun have a pears...its still find out which the best one...thats sweet...
And i believe if someday i will meet my soulmate...like sun.and other star which never live alone...

Blue-white giant that is the biggest star in our milky way...but i didnt need to be it..just need to be the blue-white smaller but have the biggest and longest light to give another light and help all not to lost....
And i will make the brightest one light to make u find me....

Thanks mas deny...to give me leasson about our galaxy and our star...thanks to give your light even just 6hours...but i always believe..if someday i will find my star...and we will blink together to give light for othet....

Thanks my friend at project08 love you always...thanks Allah...thanks bosscha...i will come to bosscha again...with my own star....

My pleasure and my regret

Hemmm....almost a week in jakarta...followed immportant person who have influence in Indonesia...

On other hand im feeling happy and also sad in the same time...
Happy when i got a new paradigm about something important and anusual...met the great person who had a great idea and advantage for people around...

Regret when i look before...about what i was doing and imagine 10years begin now how much i could be done for all people arround me...

Just think think and think..really thinking....

Allah pelase make me humbble...down to earth...never give in...always smiling...and please save me from dengki.hasud and other bad character...Allah save me from the nar...and always give the best way to close to You...

You are my mighty...please guide me