bandung oh bandung

29 july 2011

After my long time at pamulang, finally I get my holiday even just 4 days but its quite long for me...hemmm finally I'm home...

Feel home sick not, but I feel my self tired wid habit...I need something out from routinity...I wanna my life back...my life which full of surpresed, unpredictable, something new...

I have to make my self out from rutinity...

Kang adi tomorrow will watch HP, and I he asked me if I want to watch to, may be we could watche together, he will go wid his frend-some...


Hemmm I would like to tell you about my ourney to bandung today...

From office I went togeterwid my frend..took conversation about everythg...
Finally i'm on my bus by my self...set in the empty seat...
But it full and someone sit beside me...tired so I slept...
The road still same...crowded widout traffic jam...
Cipularang stil long road...
The bus full fill the gas in the same gas station, but its fnny coz one of the passanger is out from bus and we have to wait puih hehe...

The day is going dark even is 06.25pm...I can't see the road cleary..but I'm happy...

Ow my god..I don't know why I feel like I wanna vomitte...not like usual, I feel got sick..ehhh what happen.. Wanna sleep but can't..hope I'll find...
Hate my acne its make me unconfort uuuh..m.
Okey have nice holiday :)

make all blue

Weird..when I said I wouldn't that's means I don't wanna...

But when he asked don't dreams and I said yes I don't wanna to in fact I dreams him...'Haduuu'

The place was take in my old elementary school..met my HS friend and played volly buti'm not good in that..and I choose to play basket ball...but my friend-gals..can't play that game, so I play wid other friend-alif, gungun,agung,and him..their in same team, and I play wid amy, and atika

Like usual I play consistently, rebound ,and drible...but no point I can't make...the man team, always take ball from my team, their take the ball wid smoth way hem sportif way...
And finally I was wrong to make a point wid shoot the ball to my basket piuh...coz I played alone my team was back up, they said its hot day hemmm...

After played I don't now eactly what was doing...but I just believe if I still ollow some one huh I hate this..

And when the sun was strong to bright.. We all stay in hall...and in there just me and my friend, and him, ridwan,alif, gungun,adit,agung and several who I didn't exactly know...

I said if ridwan is a good man,-for what reason? I don't know!..I said to all people in hall-at the beggining I don't realize if ridwan there. So I can told all about ridwan honestly... He good man, never hurt women, nice, smart,patience act..and I asked their, is is he in here? And I really surprise coz ridwan in here, litle ambras but I just said the real think...after that he shake my hand and say thanks..hemm really weird haha..

After that, I don't know exactly what I was talking wid him...I just remember if I said, he is good and he have good mark in univ-weird again hehhe...

And I woke up..

One thing after that..all make me feel blue, don't know why...but I rare dreams something weird but its weird...and when I said I wouldn't dream him, why he come to my dream huh...

Wish I'll get other interest dreams, dreams who make me smile when I woke up in other day...

To day, kang adi write stts self improvement and I said yaps cumangad and he said cumangaaaaaddd juga bayu'...

Hahah he and me is the same character..I think he coleric like me,hem so why we always enjoy when we bbm coz we have a lot of idea, mind..
U too nice and good to me kang, but u are the figur of leader who every women want to be convenience her as a friend forever :)... I justwait and see...still waiting someone the best for me, I believe Allah will make us together when the time is right..mcoz it would be a beautifull part of life...I just do my best and always make self improvement...

Ceumangaddddd bayuuuuuuuu ceumangaaaaddd all my friendsssm....ceumangaddd my best friend who I haven't met you yet ;)

blue skyline

Tik tok tik tok tik tok tik tok...
I almost grazy...coz what reason I don't know...

Tik tok tik tok tik tok
Ya Allah...drive my self grazy grazy coz what? And still don't know...

Think though though and think hemmm think about what still don't know...

My heart what happen to u...I don't know
My mind what is going on with you still lost control...

Tik tok tik tok tik tok
Like shakespear in love...confuse about whats I don't know...lost about somethg I even know...

Find something match but its feel nothing...finding something different but its don't means anything...

Tik tok tik tok tik tok
How prosaic I'm how phatetic I'm...like wind hollow and laugh of me...

Need something changing and new athmosfer to create new life story...

Need brave to do somthg grazy...need time to take my adrenalin out...need challange..

Tik tok tik to tik tok...
Humble..not easy..patience not easy...

Oooh how grazy I'm please help me...I'm going explode...help please...

Imagine if I fly up to the sky and lay down in the cloud, starring on the earth and starring on u...

Imagine bring back the sun shine and make you warm...

I'm going grazy and going eplode...please need pappermint blue..I need blue..;just it could make me calm...

Sky, ocean, ow hold me to out of grazy

fuzzy Blue lights

Hemm..mizz my friend badly...need to meet them...-ayu..adit..alif..fuji..gungun..miss quotes from alif...dry joke from adit...story from ayu and fuji...gun I need u help for upgrade and also reinstall my handset hehhe...

U know about someone who I was write before?who always call my name by yu'?(Only family who call me like that :)), hemm I think he sereous person but in fact not...he can't joke even dry but we have the same mind, hobby, perspective.
We always discuse about many thing..politic, tarbiyah,harry potter, Gp,F1,football, even make food by kurma-and that make me laugh tonight...
He look calm but not,smart yes, soleh but gaul hahha...
For now, he always give positive energy and mind to me...if I have touble he give his hand..like the several day before...he gave me perpective if all happen to me is the way to be good person, and he always do..and I will do...
I don't know why Allah make me met again after 5 years ago...but I relize if he give positive energy...thanks Nugroho Adinegoro :) to be my frend who always rememmbering me if I need and always there when I need some barrier...

Yesterday he called me...he said if he was readding my blog..hahha feel asamed yaps but hehe that's just a part of me hehe..I alwys honest wid my feeling...even u read this...I never chance to write... :)

I read what I was writing hemm heheh fnny and also so phatetic hiii...but I have to recovery..like I always said..its not me...I have lost from my way even just littel but it would make big on my story life...

I ave to be optimist again, look evertg wid simple way, proaktik not reactive, creative,improve my knowledge, finding and get my sholarship...

Allah I knew why u give this way for me :)...even everytg just fuzzy blue lights but its seems clear step by step..

And I always believe if no one, no body is meet me and happening to me without Your plan...its perfect plan and I can feel it...:)

I have to open my eyes my mind widely...to see all the think wid the best way..and done everything perfectly...

I can manage my heart now...if You never took me on the fuzzy lights may be I never be grow wid this problem, may be I couldn't feel what I felt this year... Even I just Your creatur whose have to learn learn learn and learn...

My heart still beat but the beat is different...got something missing but I don't care about that's, or I trying not to care...

Life is have a lot of way, a lot of perspective so I have to see all wide...

Let see what is Allah plan to me...

Ganbatte kudasai bayu..

kebun raya bogor

Hemmm I have to write this
17 july 2011
Trip to kebun raya bogor, on my own way...

Without map, just direction from my friend...

Take my backpack, fill water, and snack...

Hemm...just lucky I'm even didn't know the right transportation, but I met good driver, so he saw me all and I didn't lost...

On the bus...said if I have to kebun raya...still confuse if lost, but the navigator said 'here is kebun raya, just across the way and in by that way...becareful'he said wow whose nice he is...

Hem traveling and walking around in kebun raya..captered and saw all plant...

Buy food and ate alone hehe, people was starring but who care...

Several people offering help to take the photo,and I take that just once after that I take all by my self....

Satisfy wid the plant and the view wow...
Rain come and I just slow walked and felt every single water...

Saw "istana bogor" take picture and go home wid different way...hemmm nice traveling..

Next month I will go to kubah emas masque...insya4wi..

Thanks kang adi, u give me a lot of information and also spirit...:)...

Thanks to convenience my journey :)...

(Even write in late date but I have to write to rememmebring all, even not in detile :) )

blue journey

Baduy-kanekes village 23-24 july 2011...

Finally the day was coming. At 7.00am 23july I took my backpack and face the day to begun my journey.
Like I have been thinking..some problem will onset.before we got our ride...several student haven't pay yet, so some student didn't get food...and also the coach..little anger in the beging of day but I could handle that...
We went there by a bus, the big bus...2 bus on way..its about 5 hour on way piuh...long road...the road is bad, the big hole always make the driver hard to drive, bt alhamd evertng in good...

Arrived at kanekes on 13.xx
We got coach from JARO-like ahead of village about what are we may doing or not..after that we have to continue our trip by foot to cross the hill and mountain to arrive in GAZEBO_the 2nd village og outside baduy.
The track is challangeng, rocky,slip,high,nothing to hold, its about 3KM but I think its more...we walked about 1,5 hour.
After arrive we part on team which we will sleep together in every house.-the house is made by wood,"panggung",the dry coconut leaf.after that I take care my student who sick in there piuh :D..
@6.00pm, I decide to took abath, where? In the river...the water is good, clean and the stream isn't hard enought..no lamp, no electricity so no signl, no HP, no TV no no lighting, just the moon...we take a bath there...swimming and played in water...
After dinner, and pray we slept at 8.00 a clock wow early night :)...one of my student cry because no mattres. For sleep so he can't slept piuh :D but finally I give her analgetica and she slept...at 3.00am my student woke me up, coz she have to pup! Ow my god.other my frend scare coz its dark, so I must to convenience her...dark, but the air is clean n cool brbrbb...

@8.00am, 24 july 2011
We begun journey to 'kampung baduy dalam'
Wow amazing the track is awful hahah...more hard, more rocky, more high, more slitc, but the view is worthed... Hemm...
We trought the 'jalan setapak', 'tanjakan cinta' which have the high about 80 degree we climb without help of the tool...
Ate durian which my student got-its fallen from the tree. Wow amaze the taste is sweet and hemm :-bd...
Walked and chit chat more wid my student...
After we clim about 3 hour we arrived in baduy dalam, ate durian again hemmmm... And break for a moment, and then listen Jaro to explan about baduy...
@1.00pm, we back to GAZEBO...the same way also the same track hemmm but when we across tanjakan cinta, we have to use rofe..2 student got injure in feet so I have to convenience them so the trip become long...
Arrive @ gazebo at 4.00pm, pray, packing and continue to kanekes for back to pamulang..
Its about 1,5 hour to back to kanekes, someg happen but I didn't care intensifly coz I was tried...pray magrib-even my clothes dirty coz I have fall down in the slip way...
Ate and then back to pamulang...

Wow long trip, I chit chat with the navigator of bus, about everythg,got kram on my feet, got move sit to solve that,,,the navigator give me paper to sit, and when I down from the bust to buy water, the paper is still hang on my pant ow my god, and I didn't relize it, people staring on me and they laugh huh :(..but I to tired to respond that, so I just let them laugh, and said why u didn't ask me? To te navigator-he said I wish I could, but u run to the market so I could ruin that..hem that's ok its good coz people laugh coz of that..that ok :)..
The driver choose alternative road even more far, but it isn't crowded..several time our bus almost crush but alhamd the driver its good enough, even he old I think :)..
But the way is bad and its make the tire damage piuh...so it have to chance..
Coz that we arrived in pamulang on 1.45am...
I was tried so I regarding to my friend and took my back home..
Arrived in my kost on 02.02..up date my status...took a bath...got my body "salon pas"kos its feel bad,,,after that's sms a bobby an said if I need him to wake me up for sbuh...and then I slept...

Hemm long journey but its whorted..even my body sick now but I have different adventuring, different experience, and more...

Thanks my lil sister sifa..even u just 7th years old but u great gals..u could climb the mount, u strong even u lil :).._u will be a great women I believe that...

Its my 2nd journey to baduy..my first is on 8 years ago...nothing chance extremitly...just several part but still love visit baduy...

Thanks 4wi for the chance.. :)
Blue always blue...and I have to be stronge in every part of life...

bluer and blue

last night he called me and we took conversation about 2hours, hemm long called
we talked about my problem which i was got in Monday, share about many things...
and my heart going blue again ow my God its could be happen i have to forget him...

i wanna understand him bout in other side he could be reach with my attention...
so i could be understand what will i do with this..

hemmmm... the flow going flood the sky going cloud the wind going blow....

what can i do, i don't understand what would i do...

please Allah give me answer, the right one...

when he called me, my heart going blushing, and after got his calling, everithing going lost..i feel lost my self ooooqwwwww please help me....

he said if he is chooser, when he talked about women, and also his mom is cruel, anger people...

please Allah help me.......

blue is blue and always blue

the sad of dark blue

Idont know what was happening today...but I just know one think all happend coz of me and all happen is wrong...
My mind going explod coz I have a lot of things to thinks... I don't know if my decision to go to the work is the wrong coiche..if that's fault I don't know what is the problem wid this...

Some people ungred wid me coz eerything is missunderstanding...
And she angred again like in batam, coz I went to office and she didn't but whats wrong wid that..is it my fault?...huh I really stuck here and I need to go from hee...but I think 4wi gie that's to me to make me brave and wise...

Mistake and all I have to do is mistake...if u asked why I don't know why...

I really think If I didn't make a mistake why I have to be sorry...

I really hate all happend...

Someone was make me little calmdown but I don't know exactly I have to do...

Every people think if I wrong...but they don't know what's my poblem is...

Ya 4wi just U and only U who make scenaryo for me..so just give me the best way and best choice to me...

I know is lie never simple but please 4wi give me the best way in all happening here...I' really stuck and I need to be out...

Adit...thanks, u are the first who give respond in my situation, thanks aa u the scnd people to make me smile...

Just thinking if I have a good friend even I never be good for them...

In the late of night, when my head is sick...my tears still fall and its wouldn't to stop...I don't know what's chaos was want to me...but I just believe one think maybe everytg never be the same and I just being the same...

Need some one to understand but I earn that no one could be understan except my own self...

blue adventure

sunday morning, 26 juni 2011
traveled by my self to TMII...wow that was wonderful journey, because i got extraordinary experience... looked the history of 2nd President-Soeharto. the appreciation which he was get and alot of things they have...
got kiss from pretty women...even she old but she have charisma...love it

knew about traditional house of indonesia islands...

introduced by lecture of SMK in Lampung, he is from Bali his name is Mr. Ketut adn his Son name is Krisna...

nice time, nice moment nice trip, even i have been lost for a while...heheh i lost the way and arrived in Depok, but over all i love it... thanks Allah fot the opportunity :)