black rose

Ya Allah, in the morning when I was walking by my self to office, my phncell rang.. Someone who I knew as a mother of my student Karina, is crying she sai something which I can't get cleary the means.. She said 'dia meminta pulang ke tempat dimana dia dulu dilahirkan' I just though what happen? Is something bad accure?

And when I arriing in office I told to my frend about that, and not took alonger time, mr. Ridwan arrived and gave us bad news, karina was rest foever.

Innalillahiwainnalillahirojiun, that's word we said...

Call my studen and gave the news to them... Not panic but I just think about her mother, I'm really sure if she will get wound.

Waitedcomfirm from foundation about which what we will go to hospital, but haven't got that.
So I decided to go by bike wid mrs. Endah..

Long trip really, its about 1hr to arrive in hospital, but karina body was taking to home, we didn't know the address but we said bismillah and went there wid little info, and also my student

2hr after that we arrived, her mom looked so sad, we give support but that's denial vase...
After shalat jenazah, we continue our trip to the next hospital, where other student have been curing.

After all bussiness done ack to pamulang

Subhanallah hot and that my self dry and dehidrate

Ya Allah take her to the best place where U prepare for her.. Friday is the best day, Ramadhan is the best month, wish all amalan n iman islam from her U accepted..
Amiin..
'Adinda karina sari putri, we love u darl...thanks to be part of our life...u teach me a lot, and wish Allah give the best place for u...rest in peace honey...u will always life in our life...even ijust knoww u in shot time, but u give me a lot means...wish Allah forgive all fall thinks. Have been done amiin '
12 ramadhan-12 august 2011 for the rest u in peace..Allah hafidz

dreams blue dreams

Sunbhanallah thanks Allah you give me hit to make me up... When I wake up I realize if I have been wasted my time-almost one years..maybe this is recovery time for all the think happen in my life..but I was trap in safety zone...where everyting going flat, not dreams not target, no power no challance piuh this not good...

When I got news if my friend Andriana get scholarship to taiwan and will go in the begining of september my heart going absured...

my intuisy and imagination fly and remembering all my dreams which has been blur for the time...

I have to catch all my dreams... Going abroad became magister of midwifery bismillah believe net years I will go for study on postgrad...

Manjadda wajadda...if we believ, and we work hard to close the dreams and Allah give permit and ridho to me, next years I will go to Australia or Holand coz that is place where the midwifery education more growup...


Ceumangaaaddd by...
Almost a years I'm was walking on place and never step just feeling something imajiner...love is not about everything...and now the most importan is to continue my study...come on by become magister of midwife in 2013,,,so u have to get scholar in next years...

Nothin possible if you think possible but it would be impossible if you think like that...

Just waiting me okay....


Holand...Hoiy hoiy hoiy :)

blau.blau..blau

Hemmmm...da lama ya g nulis di blog...pengen pake bahasa indonesia ah kali-kali...

Waw banyak banget hal terjadi alley :)
Pulang kebandung terus jalan ama sinta wuih banyak banget hal yg buat aku ter wah wah heheh dlm segaa hal..tentang dirinya, diri dia dan diri2 yang lain...

Hem make dcision tp yg skrg harus konsisten :)...
Ternyata pas aku baca2 lagi alley ternyata aku udah pernah bilang mundur dan aku g konsisten hahahha parahnya aku ckkckc...

Alley...aku nemuin sosok yg banyak kesamaannya ama aku...
Nampak dia tipe koleris juga...
Suka diskusi, pokoknya nyaman c bbman ama dia, tp jiper alley...hemmm ya gitu d dia kan MR, hapalan hadisnya banyak, hapalan alquran banyak, dewasa heheh...nemuin diri aku didirinya

Tp jiper hehhe, apapun itu yg jelas wish d best d kalo emang dia terbaik Allah akan mendektkan aku dengannya dgn cara yg baik, namun jika bukan pasti ada yg lain yg jauh lebih baik :)

bandung oh bandung

29 july 2011

After my long time at pamulang, finally I get my holiday even just 4 days but its quite long for me...hemmm finally I'm home...

Feel home sick not, but I feel my self tired wid habit...I need something out from routinity...I wanna my life back...my life which full of surpresed, unpredictable, something new...

I have to make my self out from rutinity...

Kang adi tomorrow will watch HP, and I he asked me if I want to watch to, may be we could watche together, he will go wid his frend-some...


Hemmm I would like to tell you about my ourney to bandung today...

From office I went togeterwid my frend..took conversation about everythg...
Finally i'm on my bus by my self...set in the empty seat...
But it full and someone sit beside me...tired so I slept...
The road still same...crowded widout traffic jam...
Cipularang stil long road...
The bus full fill the gas in the same gas station, but its fnny coz one of the passanger is out from bus and we have to wait puih hehe...

The day is going dark even is 06.25pm...I can't see the road cleary..but I'm happy...

Ow my god..I don't know why I feel like I wanna vomitte...not like usual, I feel got sick..ehhh what happen.. Wanna sleep but can't..hope I'll find...
Hate my acne its make me unconfort uuuh..m.
Okey have nice holiday :)

make all blue

Weird..when I said I wouldn't that's means I don't wanna...

But when he asked don't dreams and I said yes I don't wanna to in fact I dreams him...'Haduuu'

The place was take in my old elementary school..met my HS friend and played volly buti'm not good in that..and I choose to play basket ball...but my friend-gals..can't play that game, so I play wid other friend-alif, gungun,agung,and him..their in same team, and I play wid amy, and atika

Like usual I play consistently, rebound ,and drible...but no point I can't make...the man team, always take ball from my team, their take the ball wid smoth way hem sportif way...
And finally I was wrong to make a point wid shoot the ball to my basket piuh...coz I played alone my team was back up, they said its hot day hemmm...

After played I don't now eactly what was doing...but I just believe if I still ollow some one huh I hate this..

And when the sun was strong to bright.. We all stay in hall...and in there just me and my friend, and him, ridwan,alif, gungun,adit,agung and several who I didn't exactly know...

I said if ridwan is a good man,-for what reason? I don't know!..I said to all people in hall-at the beggining I don't realize if ridwan there. So I can told all about ridwan honestly... He good man, never hurt women, nice, smart,patience act..and I asked their, is is he in here? And I really surprise coz ridwan in here, litle ambras but I just said the real think...after that he shake my hand and say thanks..hemm really weird haha..

After that, I don't know exactly what I was talking wid him...I just remember if I said, he is good and he have good mark in univ-weird again hehhe...

And I woke up..

One thing after that..all make me feel blue, don't know why...but I rare dreams something weird but its weird...and when I said I wouldn't dream him, why he come to my dream huh...

Wish I'll get other interest dreams, dreams who make me smile when I woke up in other day...

To day, kang adi write stts self improvement and I said yaps cumangad and he said cumangaaaaaddd juga bayu'...

Hahah he and me is the same character..I think he coleric like me,hem so why we always enjoy when we bbm coz we have a lot of idea, mind..
U too nice and good to me kang, but u are the figur of leader who every women want to be convenience her as a friend forever :)... I justwait and see...still waiting someone the best for me, I believe Allah will make us together when the time is right..mcoz it would be a beautifull part of life...I just do my best and always make self improvement...

Ceumangaddddd bayuuuuuuuu ceumangaaaaddd all my friendsssm....ceumangaddd my best friend who I haven't met you yet ;)

blue skyline

Tik tok tik tok tik tok tik tok...
I almost grazy...coz what reason I don't know...

Tik tok tik tok tik tok
Ya Allah...drive my self grazy grazy coz what? And still don't know...

Think though though and think hemmm think about what still don't know...

My heart what happen to u...I don't know
My mind what is going on with you still lost control...

Tik tok tik tok tik tok
Like shakespear in love...confuse about whats I don't know...lost about somethg I even know...

Find something match but its feel nothing...finding something different but its don't means anything...

Tik tok tik tok tik tok
How prosaic I'm how phatetic I'm...like wind hollow and laugh of me...

Need something changing and new athmosfer to create new life story...

Need brave to do somthg grazy...need time to take my adrenalin out...need challange..

Tik tok tik to tik tok...
Humble..not easy..patience not easy...

Oooh how grazy I'm please help me...I'm going explode...help please...

Imagine if I fly up to the sky and lay down in the cloud, starring on the earth and starring on u...

Imagine bring back the sun shine and make you warm...

I'm going grazy and going eplode...please need pappermint blue..I need blue..;just it could make me calm...

Sky, ocean, ow hold me to out of grazy

fuzzy Blue lights

Hemm..mizz my friend badly...need to meet them...-ayu..adit..alif..fuji..gungun..miss quotes from alif...dry joke from adit...story from ayu and fuji...gun I need u help for upgrade and also reinstall my handset hehhe...

U know about someone who I was write before?who always call my name by yu'?(Only family who call me like that :)), hemm I think he sereous person but in fact not...he can't joke even dry but we have the same mind, hobby, perspective.
We always discuse about many thing..politic, tarbiyah,harry potter, Gp,F1,football, even make food by kurma-and that make me laugh tonight...
He look calm but not,smart yes, soleh but gaul hahha...
For now, he always give positive energy and mind to me...if I have touble he give his hand..like the several day before...he gave me perpective if all happen to me is the way to be good person, and he always do..and I will do...
I don't know why Allah make me met again after 5 years ago...but I relize if he give positive energy...thanks Nugroho Adinegoro :) to be my frend who always rememmbering me if I need and always there when I need some barrier...

Yesterday he called me...he said if he was readding my blog..hahha feel asamed yaps but hehe that's just a part of me hehe..I alwys honest wid my feeling...even u read this...I never chance to write... :)

I read what I was writing hemm heheh fnny and also so phatetic hiii...but I have to recovery..like I always said..its not me...I have lost from my way even just littel but it would make big on my story life...

I ave to be optimist again, look evertg wid simple way, proaktik not reactive, creative,improve my knowledge, finding and get my sholarship...

Allah I knew why u give this way for me :)...even everytg just fuzzy blue lights but its seems clear step by step..

And I always believe if no one, no body is meet me and happening to me without Your plan...its perfect plan and I can feel it...:)

I have to open my eyes my mind widely...to see all the think wid the best way..and done everything perfectly...

I can manage my heart now...if You never took me on the fuzzy lights may be I never be grow wid this problem, may be I couldn't feel what I felt this year... Even I just Your creatur whose have to learn learn learn and learn...

My heart still beat but the beat is different...got something missing but I don't care about that's, or I trying not to care...

Life is have a lot of way, a lot of perspective so I have to see all wide...

Let see what is Allah plan to me...

Ganbatte kudasai bayu..