fuzzy Blue lights

Hemm..mizz my friend badly...need to meet them...-ayu..adit..alif..fuji..gungun..miss quotes from alif...dry joke from adit...story from ayu and fuji...gun I need u help for upgrade and also reinstall my handset hehhe...

U know about someone who I was write before?who always call my name by yu'?(Only family who call me like that :)), hemm I think he sereous person but in fact not...he can't joke even dry but we have the same mind, hobby, perspective.
We always discuse about many thing..politic, tarbiyah,harry potter, Gp,F1,football, even make food by kurma-and that make me laugh tonight...
He look calm but not,smart yes, soleh but gaul hahha...
For now, he always give positive energy and mind to me...if I have touble he give his hand..like the several day before...he gave me perpective if all happen to me is the way to be good person, and he always do..and I will do...
I don't know why Allah make me met again after 5 years ago...but I relize if he give positive energy...thanks Nugroho Adinegoro :) to be my frend who always rememmbering me if I need and always there when I need some barrier...

Yesterday he called me...he said if he was readding my blog..hahha feel asamed yaps but hehe that's just a part of me hehe..I alwys honest wid my feeling...even u read this...I never chance to write... :)

I read what I was writing hemm heheh fnny and also so phatetic hiii...but I have to recovery..like I always said..its not me...I have lost from my way even just littel but it would make big on my story life...

I ave to be optimist again, look evertg wid simple way, proaktik not reactive, creative,improve my knowledge, finding and get my sholarship...

Allah I knew why u give this way for me :)...even everytg just fuzzy blue lights but its seems clear step by step..

And I always believe if no one, no body is meet me and happening to me without Your plan...its perfect plan and I can feel it...:)

I have to open my eyes my mind widely...to see all the think wid the best way..and done everything perfectly...

I can manage my heart now...if You never took me on the fuzzy lights may be I never be grow wid this problem, may be I couldn't feel what I felt this year... Even I just Your creatur whose have to learn learn learn and learn...

My heart still beat but the beat is different...got something missing but I don't care about that's, or I trying not to care...

Life is have a lot of way, a lot of perspective so I have to see all wide...

Let see what is Allah plan to me...

Ganbatte kudasai bayu..