the blue oceans

For several days I was lost... Like I never know who iam,,, every single time just let as I know as no plan...and that's was suck...
The main is because somethg biggers are handle control of mine....
But after I met friend, my min is open...and I got some bright in my head...I found my self again...

Like I was sailing in the wide ocean, no one convenience but I get one to control my self...

Hem...blue ocean..I always love it...but I still think if I have to aware coz someting in the deep is staring on me...

Alhamdulillah,,, I can get control my self again, even not at all but its half of part of me is bigan to drive...

Relize if love only love, but the true love never make us oing somentg worst or make self worst...if that make all happen worst, that's means the love is wrong...and that's call isn't love...

I have to make a plan nop asleep but plan to make all dreams comein up...

I have to rearrange my plan...and make tha back up...

I have back to my way...coz for almost amonth I got out o my line...lost direction and not found all I need

Love is immportan but it not the most...coz people arround me give enough love for me...

I just wanna be my...if some one couldn't accept me like as I'm...I think just smile to him and say bye...maybe i'm not the best as u searching for...I'm not the best one for u...and also u not the best for me...just walk away on your road and never accros to my way coz we have different path of destination...which I never know what's u wanna be and what's u wanna rich...

I know exactly what's I want to, and wanna be...and I'll get the best friend of my life wo alwyas make me safe when I try to reach my dreams... Coz he have a dreams to cath to...

So today I have to smile...just give ordinary care and altitde...

Back to reality,,,write a new story...never will the fate...coz u never know what will happen...

Smile...bismillah...stay blue with the rose u want to get...with the blue sky which u wanna staring...with the blue ocean which u wanna sailing...with the blue see which u wanna swimming...with the blue heart which u have to along in mind...

Staring wide in the midle of the night...not to make u desperate but also make u feel optimist to do some thing, to get a lot things...
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vanilla twilight

that's life sometime we feel happy like no world beneath the feet, but on the other time its feel sad and confuse like heavy dust of space fall in the body....

people could deny if their feel love but the heart never lie...it would be say if their is falling in love...

i know exactly if love could make us sad if that true love...but sometime love is blind it could be make some one lost and doing unpredictable tings...

i like to being love i love to being like someone...but really i don't want to be confuse and feeling guilty with this feeling....

sometimes i wanna let all go..but on the other part of my self tell if it worth to be fight... so what can i do...

it make me suck but it make me happy...it make me guilty but it make me comfort to do...

please help me,...i think i got a thousand pink in my life...
if i could choice something,,,, may i erase all and never meet him...

is it mistake to meeting here or it is blessing....
i don't know exactly....

Ya Allah please2....just take me to the right way please....


WHEN THE BLUE BECAME BLUE BUT ITS BECOME DARK IN BLUE....I LOVE BLUE AND ALWAYS LOVE LIKE I LOVE YOU AND WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU....

hem... its the other side of live

hemmm.. is it live...
when we have something make our self down...look around...hey a lot of things will teach u alot and also make some energy for our life...

lope to be a lecture cos i can learn from my student....
like today i got experience if life have to fight... for a better life,,,

when my heart let all gone

that is love...
when i adult i though if i would never fall in love...but that was wrong.

like now after 24 years old... my heart going blue... cos i have been in love...
hemmmm...love make me smile but also cry in the same time....
love make me fly and also fall in every time....

when the feel is grow my hearth going blue and pink

but i have to realize if someone will be hurt cos my love....

hem...
when i have strong in my heart to let him go and i have to hold that...he came again in my life and offer something new for me...:((

hemmmm but i have to be strong and i have to hold that..cos i believe if Allah have the best way for me and also the best soul match for me :) semangaddd

blue rainbow again

March 27...he again...when I think to let him and find out someone else who could be by my side...
And he come again...with the rainbow and a new story...
My frend asked about married and he anserd if all still a mistery...
He asked me to saw what was talking about...but I'm really confuse and not understandg about that...
I just think...ya 4WI why u make me to remember him when I try to let him go...
I just try to let him go with own live...even m heart still hurt...
But I believe I can let him go :)...
When I think about that Allah make him care about me and that make my self become weak to let him go...
Honestly..I'm still loving him, but I realize if a lot ofthink was barrier us...
Ya Allah ibelieve in your fate...so just give me the best :)...
Blue I hope I could sleep tight to night. Even I have something 2 think :)
Bismillah

blue will never chance

yaps this is life..life is full of surprising. people have own ideas, dreams and also life but GOD always have fate to us...

when we life with simple problems that is time for improve our self...when the problem become bigger that time for us to begging the best way to Allah....


problem is always problem if we never try to handle and solve that...but its may become the power of life if we look with heart and try to face all with smile, optimist and confident...


life is about become necessary for other. when we life but never take the best way...and never doing the best that means u are not think....

so keep believing keep smiling and faith if something best is waiting for... :)

hate like this

love where are u...my soul feel empty... don't know surly what's going on..
Love why u far from me... i haven't like this coz every thing is going crazy...
love please don't far from me... i really need U for shelter...
Allah i really Love you...i hate this feeling. when i must jealous with someone, in fact i have to jealous with u...

please hinder my heart for that love... i need the true love, when everything going clearly and no one could

make like this...

i really love him but i know if he love someone else, but my heart always tell the truth.. when i saw him with her i hate to feel like this...

i have to think clearly...

HE ISN'T LOVING YOU...SO STOP TO THINK ABOUT HIM...YOU ARE TO PRICELESS TO WASTE TIME FOR THINKING ABOUT HIM...MOVE ON AND DRAW THE LINE OF YOUR LIFE..U HAVE TO GLOWING AND LEAVE THE GIVING...